Some days I enjoy being a mother; other days, when my outlook is grim, I do not enjoy being a mother for the mere fact that I can\’t be alone when I want to be alone.
Here’s something that’s on my mind, under the surface, pretty much all the time: I am torn between moving to Delaware where Paul and I would have family support at least sometimes; an evening, cost free, to go out and be together ALONE. And, the kiddos would be with people who love them dearly and would give their lives for them.
Here in Cincinnati, a place I do love, there is little help; a little relief on days when we are sick or desperately need some time away, a time out, from our daily lives. But we have friends here, friends that we hardly get to see because our lives are so busy raising our kids and working and it is a vicious cycle. So what do we do? I guess I’ll start making my pros vs. cons list.
I’m just tired and irritable. On days like this I wish I could even escape myself.