April Fools (as if it weren’t obvious by now I suppose)! I tried though. I really really tried. Overall it was a good exercise in exploring a fantasy – what might possibly persuade me to give up what I’ve been building, fostering, nurturing here at home and be employed by another company. No matter the paycheck, incentives, perks, promises (empty or sincere), I would say no. Always. I can’t even imagine a scenario where I would even be tempted. The lure of “security” through a steady paycheck is no lure at all.
Perhaps there is still a great distrust of others eternally branded on me, especially those I don’t know. I don\’t trust anyone to have my best intentions, or my family’s, in mind. When “push comes to shove” (I can’t think of a better catchphrase) people will choose themselves and their self-interest and self-preservation over others, over self-sacrifice, over honest communication or a mutually caring relationship. I don’t expect that from anyone I work with – but at the same time, I need that in people, in those I know or associate with “Why do I waste valuable time, with people who don\’t care if I live or die”. So this where I am, this is where I am happy. Would it be nice to live in the mountains of Colorado, with no worries about providing for my family, enjoying my work – of course, and perhaps that is possible without sacrificing what I value.