Does anyone live in reality? Anyone? Does anyone know how to be honest and examine themselves without projecting their deficiencies, foibles, insecurities or sins onto others? Daily I loose hope that a “truthfully” lived life is possible or sustainable. We walk with our hands to our faces, knocking each other down, describing the world around…
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Purgatory of emotion
I’m in a stupor. Lost. Aimless. It’s been weeks now of having a void of feeling. I feel neither loved or hated. I feel neither closeness nor repulsion. God is here — which are only words. My palette has lost the taste of mercy and grace. Life is virtual — lived in programs and viruses…
Read MoreTo move or not to move
I’m not sure what is going on. Since our trip back from mom and dad’s a few weeks ago things have gotten strange. Sonya and I talked a bit about how it would be nice to actually have family nearby — and how the kids miss them so much. Besides the fact that we love…
Read MoreFirst day of kindergarten
It’s a late start for the day. Abbie just got back from (a short day of) her very first day of kindergarten. She’s quite excited, to the point of being angry that she’s not able to be able school — unfortunately full day doesn’t start in it’s entirety till Thursday. Elliott starts preschool next month;…
Read MoreCoffee addict
I’m a coffee addict. I was too tired to roast last night; for fresh beans this morning. I have a splitting headache now – right through the sides of my head. Abbie has just a few more days till she is in kindergarten. Last night there was an ice cream “social” (I put it in…
Read More‘Too big and freaky looking’
“In focus groups, online polling, and one-on-one discussion, Extreme for Jesus has found that the number one reason teens don’t read the Bible is that it is “too big and freaky looking.” This fashion-magazine format for the New Testament is the perfect solution to that problem. Teen girls feel comfortable exploring the Scriptures and over 500 further-study notes because of the relevant format!”
Read MoreOverthinking on the endless road
Driving for hours in the car leads to nothing but over thinking, especially our drive through Pennsylvania and Ohio with kids movies we’ve seen (well, mostly just heard) 25 times or more. Here is some of the random things that were going through my head. “Bug’s Life” is about a war on terror, and the…
Read MoreDementia
My dad told us a fascinating story last night about my grandmother (his mother), and the power of one bad choice to affect many people for a long long long time. My grandmother died around 1999; when Abigail was 5 or 6 months old. For years previous her health had been deteriorating; mostly her mind….
Read MoreIts all true
The effects of hurricane Charley are making the kids quite unhappy. Right outside the numerous windows of the house they see the beckoning, crystal blue pool (unlike our home, which outside our one back window you can see weeds, random grasses and some dirt). But it’s raining and cool, and even a heated pool can’t…
Read MoreAt last a break
I’m listening to the kids giggle till they’re hiccuping, as they play with their granddaddy. The simplest things bring the greatest laughter — and it doesn’t even involve potty humor. It’s a nice break, and joyous to my ears to sense the intimate and innate love they have for their grandparents. But at the same…
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